my life

Loving words:    
-family
-love
-mother
-raised
-proud
-brother
-sister
-change
-free
-independence
-dreams
-succeed
-her

Neutral words:
-birthdays
-money
-luxuries
-good
-graduate
-live
-visit
-capable
-studying
-need

anger, stress, judgment:
-difficult
-divorced
-never around
-hate
-frustration
-disfunctional
-serious
-bitch
-not easy
-wall
-routine
-tired
-zombie
-bored
-lost

Unsurprisingly the column with more words is the one of anger, stress and judgment. This is because my life has been difficult and it's just hard to forget it, I know I should focus on the good on my life but the sad moments always triumph over the good ones because no matter how happy you are these sad moments have a way of being really bad, so' that you won't forget them I guess. I have never done this exercise before, it makes me feel like I'm reflecting on my life but most of all it makes me feel sad because when someone tells you to describe your life you can't just say the happy parts, it's like an obligation to remember things you don't wish to think or talk about. The only thing this revealed to me is that I wasn't over some things in my life that I thought I was, and other things that I thought I was not over them yet...weren't even important when it came to describing my life. I learned that I waste to much time obssesing over some things that aren't even important to me when it comes to describing my life, I didn't even remember them. I learned that I need to focus on the real issues in my life and that I shouldn't try to hide them because they are a part of me, whether I like it or not.